On one hand, I don’t want to write this post because it’s morbid and silly to. On the other hand, life is unpredictable, and if things do go not according to plan, I want to have said all that I will say here. Jason knows it’s here, and will post it if necessary.
I am twenty-four, and happy. There are many people who will never be able to say that, regardless of how old they are. I had a blissful childhood, with loving parents, wonderful siblings who I squabbled with and made up with, lots of excitement, lots of change, lots of learning, lots of opportunities and the security of knowing that I have a strong, loving family who will always be there.
Since leaving childhood, my school and university years (the learning years) have been full of great friends, happy memories and lots of learning about the beautiful world that we live in.
I’ve had a great couple of years starting out in my career. I’m enjoying putting my skills to use, working out what I’m good at and what I could improve, and what it is I truly want to do with my life.
I have the love of a truly wonderful man, a man I am proud to call my husband. The blessing and the joy that he has brought to my life was unexpected, but has made me happier than I ever thought possible. We have so many plans for the things that we would like to do as we embark on our lives together.
I have a wonderful future ahead that I look forward to with great happiness – and the anticipation and looking forward to something is usually just as good, if not better, than the actual event itself.
So I am happy. We all die at some point, and I am happy with the life I’ve lived, the things I have accomplished and the things I’ve done. I’m also grateful for the wonderful world that I’ve lived in, grateful for the people who have come into my life, and grateful for the things I’ve learnt. Above all, I’m happy and grateful for all the people in my life who I love and who love me.
My mother, my role model, my support, my kindred spirit, my friend. Mama, you are the sort of mother that every woman should aspire to be. You have always been there, and I know that you always will be. Not everyone can say that their mother also became their best friend, but I can. Be happy Mama, embrace and accept all that life has to offer you – you deserve so much happiness. You have certainly given me so much throughout my life. I love you.
Daddy, thank you for such an unconventional childhood of travel! I learnt so much that many people never learn – how big the world is, how much it has to offer. It has a lot to do with who I am today, and I’m very grateful that you have never done the ‘conventional’ thing. I’m also glad that I got to spend the last few years with you here in Australia. I love you Daddy.
Dave, I’m so glad you came into our lives. Thank you for making Mama so happy. The two of you have such an inspiring and happy relationship – you understand that is the simple pleasurable things in life that create happiness. I wish you all that happiness. I love you.
Beata, je suis tellement heureuse de t’avoir comme belle-mère. J’ai beaucoup de bonnes memoires de tout ce qu’on a fait ensemble – les puzzles avec After Eights, le gym, les cafés à Gloria Jean! Sois heureuse – tu la mérites . N’oublie pas que le success (et le bonheur) et un voyage, pas une destination! Je t’aime.
Ben, we were very close as children and then drifted in different directions throughout our teen years. Lately though, we’ve worked out that it doesn’t matter how different we are, we still love each other very much. I’m been so happy that we’ve managed to renew our relationship. I hope that you find great happiness in your life. Be true to yourself. I love you so much.
Timmy, my Baby. You’ve grown up so much in the past few years, and you’ll continue to grow! But you’ll always be my baby Timmy, and I’ll always love you. You have such a loving nature Timmy, and I look forward to seeing you grow and change and develop into the wonderful man I know you’ll be. I love you.
Sophie baby. I don’t know what life holds for you, but I hope you’ll always be the happy laughing crazy girl that I know you as now. I hope you’ll always hear about your big sister who loves you so much. Luvou. [Blat - hand on chest.]
Amy – my soul sister and best friend. We took a gamble on Maybelline that day but look how much it paid off. You have been my best friend for the past ten years – I have been so blessed to have you. I hope that you find all the happiness in this world that you deserve, and all the happiness that you have given to me. The DnMs in the car at various lookouts, the nights out – getting ready to RnB, the serious dodgy people we always seem to encounter – the media tarting, the champagne. You’ve always been there, Amy, and I will always be there for you. I love you so much. Be well and happy.
My family – Auntie Annette, Erin and Big Sophie; Auntie Anne, Uncle Paul and Lucas; Auntie Ro, Uncle Peter, Sharnee and Milly; Sharyn, Bill, Kody, Riley and Sheldyn; and my beloved grandparents – Nana and Grandma and Grandpa. I’ve always felt so blessed to have such a big family who loves me so much, and whom I love so much. Thank you for being there when I’ve needed you. Thank you for being in my life and helping it to make it the happy life that it has been. I wish you all great love and happiness, as much as there has been in my life. I love you all so much.
My friends – those people who come into your life and make it a happier place to live. Thank you for choosing to love me, and thank you for being the people that I choose to love! My friends from school, from uni, from chess, from work, from wherever – thank you. Shae, Troy, Debbie, Adam, Etienne, Richelle, Katherine and all my friends from school – I love you. Jacqui and Tam, and all the other people from uni and college – thank you for some of the most fun years! Jacqui, my soul-sister. It has been so good to spend these last years with you in Sydney – you truly are a great friend. Nik, Reg, Jacob, Konrad, Michael and all the rest of the chess crew – I wish you all the greatest happiness. Thanks so much for being there last time I went through this journey. Jonathan – who did the journey by my side. Thanks for understanding what it’s like. Live, love and apply all the lessons we learnt! Brad, my soul-brother. I’m so glad I answered your email, life did us a big favour when it through us together. We had such a quick connection and I’m so blessed to have met you. I know that you’ll find great peace and happiness in this life. All my work friends and fellow graduates – thanks for a great year! A special thank you to Rachel and Michael, and all the Packages team for being such wonderful friends as well as colleagues. And Richard, for the good times we did share – and there were many. Be well, be happy.
My beautiful Ms Emily-child. You have brought such light and life to my world and I am so grateful that you came into my life. May your life be blessed and full of love.
Jason, my love. I need a lifetime to say all I would like to say and wish more than anything that I had one to spend with you. The improbability of meeting you when I did is something I thank God for every day. The time I have spent with you has been the happiest of my life. I am, and will always be, your wife, and I am so proud to call myself so. You are a wonderful, strong, loving man, a good man, and one that I am proud and blessed to call my husband. I love you more than words will ever say, and I will do so forever. Thank you.
So I guess I’ve started a new leg of my journey, one that you can’t follow me on yet. But I have been so happy throughout my life – and that’s because of you, the people in my life. Thank you for being a part of my life, and I’m so blessed to be a part of yours.
Happiness comes from thinking about all that we do have, and that unhappiness comes from thinking about all the things that we do not. Appreciate, as I have, all the wonderful things that life has given us, especially the wonderful people who share our lives.
Remember that happiness is a journey, not a destination.
So I leave you now. As you mourn for me, please also celebrate my life – the miracle that was a life of love and happiness. I wish you the same for your lives.
I love you.
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